Day 2: How i have changed in the past two years!

oi...this is going to be a very difficult one.
to start, exactly two years ago i had just escaped one of my mothers abusive husbands (this being husband number 3, and the guy right after my father) he treated me so bad...he actually had me believing that i was a complete waste of air, and shouldn't have ever been born. i was so scared of him, i never even left my room, and i always got detentions to avoid going home. I got SO MANY detentions, the guidance counselor took me aside one day and started talking to me... i broke down and cried on her...explaining my entire situation, so...what she worked out was. since she couldnt wipe my detentions, because i did actually do bad things. after those were all served, she had it set up that i had 2 hours extra of school each day. helping the teachers, or cleaning, or even going to the gym to work out a wee bit with some of my other friends.

after all of that, we moved to where i am now, and fast forward a few months, i am at the prom. i randomly meet a girl named heather who...didnt really help me, but really liked me so she asked me out. i didnt have many feelings towards her but i thought i would give it a try, i atleast liked dancing with her that night. i randomly went over to her house and spent the night (with parental permission of course, and i slept downstairs on the couch) always stayed up late playing games with her and her brother, but we never really did...couple type things together. so...she was more of a friend than anything. we didnt even kiss XD

but anyway, after a year and 6 months of being together, she cheats on me with the guy who has been molesting her, for her entire life( thats a long story) and then breaks up with me, and a few months later, messages me about how good the sex was. that hurt a bit....not because it was her cheating on me, or her having sex....but more so that a friend would sink so low...to try and hurt me....

a few months after that, i met the love of my life!!!!
Marija!!!!! <3
she turned everything around for me! when she met me, i was a broken husk of a person, hardly able to be considered "alive". i was totally depressed, alone, tired all the time, i hated the world and everyone in it....and it all seemed so...dark. but SHE....SHE was able to shine through the darkness, picked me up, turned my entire life around, and gave me something worth living for!!! <3 <3 <3

so in the past few years, i think it is safe to say....i have changed an awful lot, i have had a lot of downs, but i dont look back on them, because i know, i have a wonderful, promising future, with an amazing woman by my side. i have nothing but good things ahead of me, and if i work hard enough! i will be able to make all of our dreams come true <3 <3 <3

thank you all for reading, 
and i will see you all tomorrow! :D

Loving you

Loving you Marija, is the greatest thing that has ever happened to me. loving you has done so many things, made me feel so many things, and has given me hopes for the future. Loving you heals me, loving you saves me, loving you keeps me alive <3

Marija, your words help me get through every day, and help me see the focus on the good things, instead of the bad. your words do not make me drown, the help me swim and hold me up high above all danger that lurks below!

i never ever want you to let me go, because i know i want to spend the rest of my life with you. Loving you is the greatest thing that has ever happened to me, and loving you gives me life <3

i am never leaving your side Marija, because you are the most amazing, most beautiful, most wonderful, most kind, smart, woman in the entire world!!!!

You make my heart and soul sing, you make me want to scream it to the entire world, screaming "I LOVE MARIJA, FOREVER AND ALWAYS, AND NOBODY CAN EVER CHANGE THAT!!!" you make me want to sing you such sweet sweet words, and make me dream amazing dreams <3

You are my everything, and you keep me alive <3 <3 <3

I love you Marija
Forever and always,
I never want to leave your side,
and i am never going to leave your side <3 <3 <3

Friends....

Today is....an eye opener for me. all my life i have been looking for true friends, and...for the past few months, they were right in front of me all along. Marija, my sweet, loving girlfriend is truly my best friend in the world <3 she shows me love, she gives me courage, and gives me hope, and gives me a true chance to have an amazing future <3 <3 <3 Jovana, always strong, always standing up for those she loves and ready to fight at a moments notice, just so those friends don't fall. And Stefan, i used to think we were enemies...and it turns out i was completely wrong. he stood up along side Jovana and fought just as hard, if not harder for Marija and I, and that is something i can never truly repay. i can never truly repay either one of these three people, but i am truly honored to have them as my closest friends! :D